I found out that he had multiple affairs throughout our marriage, he smoked cigarettes without telling me. The man I knew was faithful and would never smoke a cigarette so I was told. It didn't just make me feel unsafe, scared to death of who I had been sleeping next to but how can I trust my own judgment anymore and not just how but why would anyone else trust my judgment especially CEO's and Presidents of multi billion with a B" Billion dollar companies trust my judgment which lead to me talking myself out of the room.

How many people feel me on that? When you talk yourself out of the room because even though these big people in these well earned positions could have said yes to anyone that they wanted to, the fact that they picked you. The fact that they are a whole fan of what you are bringing to the table but yet, you have been telling yourself and in my case some of my family was low key saying how could you have not known which didn't help with my own judgment about myself. The youngest sibling of very strong, very opinionated sisters. It could have you talking yourself out of rooms, out of the life you were born to have.If, you let it.

It has taken me years to understand that we was very young and that neither one of us knew ourselves when we got married so how could I expect to know someone who didn't know themself.We had no idea who we were going to grow into because in your twenties you still trying to figure that out, you hope that you will grow with the people you love but sometimes you just grow in different directions and that's no ones fault.

As a result of learning that lesson I am a better person because I now understand that everything has a season and I am able to let things go when that season is over without placing judgment on the situation or on myself.

I am now committed to telling my story to help others that may be going through the same thing. I just finished writing a book about my experience and I am looking forward to sharing with those who may need it.